by- K Dada Hayath
I messaged “I am in love with you, Aafreen, maybe love at first conscious sight.”
When I just messaged this. Even though I felt lite when I messaged, but my mind got struck. I felt someone had pressed pause button in my life.
I was waiting for her reply. But I don’t know she went offline after seeing it. I kept seeing my Facebook account for every minute, but she didn’t reply.
Days passed, waiting for her reply. Even in college, whenever I see her, she used to turn her face off. I felt ridiculous. One day even I tried to talk to her in the canteen by saying “hai” she just went away by ignoring me. That was it. I felt enough of it. I just felt its unhealthy for my self-respect. I just started ignoring my feelings towards her.
Days passed, I started to focus on my college. My article on ” Breaking stereotypes on men” got published in the college newsletter. It got good applaud and appreciation.
When I was about to sleep, my mobile started blinking. I checked it.
It was like Shaik Aafreen messaged.
The feelings which were suppressed in my heart started coming out. My heart started beating in rhythm, and I was blushing before opening the message.
She messaged “Wrote well, Keep it up.”
I replied, “Thank You.”
She messaged “How are you?” I replied, “I am good.” I didn’t want to start a formal conversation with her. I didn’t ask “How about you?”
There was a big pause in our chat. But I told myself to not sound desperate. After a few minutes, Aafreen messaged “What else how else life is going?”
I angrily replied, “Really?”
“What’s wrong with you. See if you don’t want to acknowledge my feelings towards you. That’s OK. But I can’t behave as if nothing happened. But I think, You should have at least said something right.”
She replied “I am sorry, i didnt mean to hurt you. It was very shocking to me. We never known each other that well, how can someone directly propose. Its very amature.”
I replied back “Yeah maybe, but you could have replied. Do you know, I waited for many days then i thought “It’s just a waste of time. So, I moved on.”
She Replied, “Hmmm, good for you.”
I replied, “Arey what’s the issue? I can un derstand you need time. you take it.”
She replied “please Suraj, don’t get in to this in our conversation. I don’t believe in this all.”
I replied “OK.”
I felt it was the start of my love story. We used to chat every day.
Though my love story was typical to all, For me it was cuter than Romeo and Juliet. It was time where I used to recite the lyrics of every romantic song by thinking of her.
But you need to understand there is a difference between trance and reality, luckily you will have someone who slaps you in a trance makes you realise that it’s not real. That was my friend, Zameer.
He said, “Don’t you think you are real to her”. I said “Ofcourse, Maamu” by smiling foolishly.
He said, “Dont lie to me, I can easily tell by the way of your smile.”
I said, ” What to do maamu, What can I say . She doesn’t like to have a conversation on it itself” He suggested, “Then You stop talking or you stop lying to yourself”. What if she blocks me again.
He said “Then she is not meant for you. But in fear of it, I dont want you to live in lie.”
he added “Just tell her what she meant for you. If she accepts that means you are lucky. If not she is lucky” started silently smiling.
I didn’t notice the humour in it, then I got it ” Abey.. #@$@^$@.”
Next day, I messaged Aafreen, “Can we meet, I need to talk to you?”
she replied “Suraj, I don’t like to meet. Please message me whatever it is.”
I messaged a long paragraph, but let me shorten it for you
“I can’t be a friend to you. I love you so much. If it’s not OK for you. I think we need to stop talking to each other. But I know we can be awesome together.”
She replied “Sorry Suraj, I cant accept this, let’s stop talking to each other. That will be better for both”
Then she used that biggest weapon ” BLOCK.”